I have been desperately wishing I didn't have to make this post; but as time moves on, I realise that if I'm not open about it soon - something bad might happen any everyone will be upset or disappointed.
Let me preface this by saying: I am safe and being taken care of - there's no danger, I just need a break.
The past few weeks have been several levels of stressful.
I've lost hearing in my left ear - which is a problem since it was the only ear I could fully hear with. This is something I'm currently working on getting sorted, but for the time being - I need to have a hearing test and potentially save up for hearing aids.
During the founding of The Indies Catalogue, the project's account disabled on Threads - after we'd gained nearly 100 followers in just three days.
Rox, my friend and co-founder of The Indies Catalogue, also lost her account due to Meta's Ai moderation. This horrified me and made me worried, and I was right to. Less than a week later, the same thing happened to my account.
Thankfully, I was able to get my account back but I realised how under-used my other accounts were - meaning they'd not grown in the same fashion.
I've also been dealing with a flare up which has been affecting my pain and fatigue levels; while it's usually something I can cope with, because we've been dealing with a move, I've not had much time to recover.
To add to this, my body has decided to menstruate for over six weeks straight... And my doctors are saying it's normal because I'm fat.
And, of course, my bipolar has decided to take a wobbly turn - when I say I'm having no stability between Hypermania and Depressive states, I genuinely mean it. While, as I've said, I can comfortably say I am safe despite this - it's not to say it's easy.
Now, moving onto what the plan is going to be going forward. Because I'm out of chapters, I'm not going to be releasing anymore for the next few weeks. I've estimated that I'll be off until the end of August so I can rest while also catching up on chapters for both Between the Petals and When Life Gives You [Tomatoes].
The issue is: I don't know if that's a good expectation. I was hoping to have two weeks off and be back in full swing, but now I'm realising I need more time than I'd like to admit.
I'm giving myself about six weeks to get better, whether this will work out or not is unknown. Of course, I can't actually schedule my recovery nor can I encourage it anymore than I already do while taking care of myself. However, it's the best estimate I can come up with and it'll give me something to work toward.
Now, this isn't to say I won't be posting at all. I have so many short stories ready to go, so we're covered for over a year. But, I'll just be keeping up with the Monthly Sunday Short Stories, if that's alright with y'all.
As for socials - I want to take a step back and try to heal without being overly active, especially considering the comments I've received over the past couple weeks... I'll probably try posting a couple times a day and avoiding the rest of the time.
I'm hoping to try updating my blog more often, because it would be nice to write long, non-fiction/opinion pieces like I used to when ghostwriting for indie zines.
I suppose we'll have to wait and see. Nevertheless, I'm so sorry for having to do this - I know it can be disappointing. But, I promise I will be coming back stronger!
Anywho, I better shut up and get back to sleep.
Take care and have a wonderful week!
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